Should I or should I not?

It has been a while since I'd written anything in a blog. But there is something that stems me into writing again. What's that? It's my language proficiency deterioration.

Now, I'm planning to write again to rectify my proficiency problem. I've just realized how deteriorate my English was when I've been asked to present a certain topic in class.

Should I or should I not indulge into writing again? and I said to myself -

"you fəkɪŋ should!"